Entry 1: The Beginning ( 9 / 23 / 07 )
Okay, so this is my journal. If I did not give my permission to read this, then stop reading it. What the Hell are you thinking? Seriously. There's personal things in here. Well, this is for my Sophomore and up years of high school. This should definitely be filled with a bunch of crazy and hilarious moments and memories by the end of the year, maybe a few sad ones as well. What can I say? You gain some and then you lose some right? Hm.. well kick back and enjoy it. If you don't get a headache then I'll be surprised. Here goes my life for the next year..
Entry 2: My Life Right Now ( 9 / 23 / 07 )
Right now things are going good. I have a ton of awesome things going for me and I'm not holding anything back. As my official first entry I feel the need to announce the people that are always there for me. There's Terry Stanton, Matt Bensfield, Jesse Dungerow, Travis Hude, Brian Hude, Dillon Parsons, Tabby Burleson, and JoAnna Govits. They are all rad people, and deserved to be mentioned in the beginning of this thing. So, now that that's out of the way.. I like a girl. Her name is Katy. Katy Papple. Yeah, she isn't single, but that will change eventually. It always happens that way. It's just the way things go. The dude's name is Alex Falls. Don't know much about him other than he's a skater kid, and that Katy cheats on him. Ha. She told me 11 times so far. Go figure. He just doesn't treat her right. Can't help but feel bad for her, and him.. even though it's his own damn fault. Well, I care about her you know? Maybe she feels the same. I get the feeling she does. Hm.. well things will get cooler, just you wait. With that said, I'm going to get out of here for now. The next entry will take place when something big happens that is worth writing about. So.. keep it real people. Peace.
Entry 3: I Was Right, And Things Are Happening ( 9 / 24 / 07 )
I went to school this morning like normal, just chilling there eating a damn good cookie, when someone told me that Katy was now single ( Go figure ). I couldn't help but feel great about it, even though I was supposed to be sorry for her. Call me evil or whatever. I'm only human dude. Ha. Don't get me wrong though, I did try my best to help her feel better. I think we're getting along pretty well. It's pretty rad to think that maybe things will come together like I want them to. Other than all that.. today was like any other day. Lunch was entertaining. Me and some of the guys had a contest today.. sort of. We took turns punching each other in the guts, seeing who's abs could take the most punishment before giving up. Just stupid shit, but damn good fun. Yo, that crazy ass Katy girl tried hitting me too.. I think it hurt her wrist. Well serves her right for being dumb. Anyways I'm out for now. Peace.
Entry 4: Sooner Than Expected ( 9 / 24 / 07 )
Things worked out sooner than I anticipated. I'm now with Katy ( Dating ), which is pretty bad ass if you ask me. Well it happened like this.. she called me and asked me out ( Go figure ) and I messed around with her and made her want it before I agreed to it. Hey, a dude has to have his fun sometimes. Maybe she's still confused about the shit with Alex, but I'll fix that. I'm not worried. Even if I can't I'll just get a different girl.
Entry 5: Today ( 9 / 25 / 07 )
So today I kissed my girl for the first time, and the second.. and the third.. and on and on. She's not too bad. I mean that too, because I'm a really picky dude when it comes to how I like it. I keep thinking that I won't have to wright in here again anytime soon, but cool shit just keeps on happening, so oh well. Damn, I just realized I only dated her for one day and already I'm kissing her fucking brains out. Hell yeah. Well I don't have much else to say. Except I'm out.
Entry 6: That's Life ( 9 / 26 / 07 )
Like I said in the very beginning of this, you gain some and then you lose some. Long story short, I'm not dating Katy anymore as of today. So as you can imagine, today was a little shitty. Things can and sometimes will fall apart quickly, but then again, there's a chick with a real nice ass that rides my shuttle bus. I've had my eye on that shit for some time now.. maybe it's time to make that move.
Entry 7: Karma Mother Fucker ( 9 / 28 / 07 )
Katy got raped yesterday ( On the 27th ). Tom Day and James Watts took her off school grounds and got her completely plastered, then took advantage of her while she was shit faced. Funny thing is, it would have never happened if she was still with me. I would have protected her from that, but why should I care now? She made her own decisions and she got what she made of it. I was going to beat the two of their asses, just for the fun of it, but the police got to them first and took them away. So, I'll have to do that later if I get the opportunity ( If in fact I ever see them again ). Also yesterday, Terry's older brother ( Dustin ) started crap with Jesse on the shuttle bus, and with Matt, and then finally with Terry.. in that order. He needs an ass beating too. I have a feeling he's going to be a pain in everyone's asses this year. Well, other things have happened today so I'll talk about that now. You remember that piece of fine ass I was talking about the last time I wrote in here? Well.. it just so happens that I'm dating that now. Her name is Jenna. Jenna Bullard. Now, from what I've heard about the Bullards, they are trouble. Real bitchy-like. So I'll have to keep this one in check. If she's too stupid to control herself I'll just move on again like usual. Peace.
Entry 8: Some Things.. ( 9 / 29 / 07 )
Some things turn out, others don't. This is life, and some of it is learned with hard lessons in a hard way. Dealing with the shit that goes bad is just another day, only another normality. Eventually, once you learn to accept that, you can adapt and start to block it out, becoming numb to it. And that's when you realize that the only one that can actually change things for you is yourself. Things are hard as solid stone sometimes, but you have to push it and live every hard second to it's fullest, with no regrets, and without holding anything back. Your actions will determine your results, and your results are the definition of your actions. Not everything is worth remembering, but some of it is. You just have to decide which actions are the right ones. That's what today was. It was a lesson for me. I thought maybe some of you would want to know those thoughts, maybe you will put it to good use, like I plan to myself.
Entry 9: Girls ( 10 / 1 / 07 )
Girls have always confused the living Hell out of me. They do the stupidest shit. That's all I've got to say. But besides that, there's a new kid named Dushawn going to our school ( He's a tall black dude ). Apparently he asked out my girl today and she rejected his ass HARD. So at least she did something intelligent for once. He got pissed and started bitching about it, but who cares. Let him. He won't do shit. By the way, I got my first kiss ( Actually it turned out to be more of a make out rather than just a plain kiss ) from Jenna today. The guys made a bet with me that I couldn't do it, and I showed them what was happening. I made some nice pocket money from that too.
Entry 10: Recent Stuff ( 10 / 22 / 07 )
OK, so it's been awhile since my last time writing in here, but up until now nothing eventful has happened. Well today was a different story. It was a great day. Me and Jenna are no longer together ( Hell yeah, it's about time ). I also learned how to do a back flip off of a wall today, so that's got me pumped. I'm getting pretty rad at my tricking, which is always something that makes me feel that adrenaline I love so much. At lunch we played tackle football out on the school's front lawn. Jesse thought it would be a sweet idea to tackle a kid REALLY hard. The kid's name was Shawn Campbell, and he ended up with a fractured growth plate and he even stated seizing later on after he got into the school building. DAMN it was crazy. He got so leveled.. and it was tight, but I hope he has health insurance. That shit is going to cost.. anyways, this was all the action in one place. Everything else has been normal lately. Until next time.
Entry 11: Know Your Shit ( 10 / 23 / 07 )
It's important to know your shit. I know mine. Let me explain.. so, this morning I wasn't looking forward to going to school. I had an after school Tuesday detention ready and waiting for me ( I had detention due to being late for class a few times, and I hate doing detention on Saturdays, because no one takes away my fucking free time, so I scheduled it for Tuesday ).. anyway, my old lady told me that I didn't have it, and I KNEW that I did, but I didn't wanna go anyway. So I figured Hell dude, I'll just come home tomorrow and when she asks why I'll tell her it's because she was wrong about my detention and that I was suspended for not showing up.. so, I'll let you know how my plan works out in the next entry.
Entry 12: The Office ( 10 / 24 / 07 )
Holy shit man, today was boring. My plan backfired, but not in a bad way. It just didn't turn out like it should have. My old people ended up leaving the house after I left for school, so the office secretary couldn't get a hold of them to bring me home. I sat in the office for a few hours before the staff decided to just reschedule my detention for tomorrow. So I'm probably the only person this year to have my suspension rescheduled. That's pretty bad ass. I guess since I'll have nothing to do tomorrow, except to enjoy the small vacation, I'll just wright about what happens.
Entry 13: My Vacation Day ( 10 / 25 / 07 )
I've been sitting here at home all day, wishing that there was a girl in my bedroom, but I guess I'll have to be content playing video games instead. Fuck. I've beaten Grand Theft Auto San Andreas four times today.... so fucking bored.
Entry 14: Lately.. ( 11 / 5 / 07 )
There's a few things to talk about. Number one on the list, Halloween. The best one I've had so far. I'm still burping up bits of Milky Way and Snickers bars. There was a mega load of candy that night. I hung out with Nick Damako, Katy Papple, Ryan Zeestraten, Rachael Woods, and Brandi & Jesse ( I don't know their last names ).. the Jesse kid was fucked up though. No joke. He said some of the stupidest shit ever.. kinda like a few ex's of mine. Anyways, I also saw Randy Nikols, Travis Hude, Adam Brush, and a few other people that night. I also saw Alex Falls, but he didn't stick around. Cool with me though, I didn't want him to anyways. Along with Halloween, I've been ice skating a few times lately. Rachael Woods was there both times, but some of the time other people tagged along like Robert Rien, Robert Leport, Megan Gross, and Ruben Peters. On a side note.. I kinda liked that Megan girl, so I hooked up with her today. Ruben liked her too, but he wasn't competition, he was a laugh. I took the whole thing easy, and I'll wright about my new girl next.
Entry 15: My New Girl ( 11 / 5 / 07 )
Today was the day that I started dating Megan. She's cute as fuck.. I won't deny that. She has a nice personality too, so that's good. Maybe I won't have to put up with the same shit that I did with Jenna. What's crazy though is I found out that they are cousins.. yeah, I totally didn't know that until today. Whatever it won't matter. Yeah, lately I've had a habit of kissing a girl on the first day we are dating.. I don't know why, but I'm not complaining either. Thank Terry this time, he wanted us to on the shuttle bus today and I couldn't let him down. So, today was all together pretty rad. Well peace.
Entry 16: Another Disfunctional Day ( 11 / 20 / 07 )
Well, I saw it coming like usual. That gut feeling that I get when something doesn't seem right crept in, and it always seems to be right on the money when it comes to girls. That could be an advantage though, who knows? So, Today is the day that marks the end of my relationship with Megan, but like always, I'll be sure to have another girl soon enough. Just keeping it real, besides.. I can't let a girl get me down. The second a man lets that happen he becomes vulnerable, and that's something I promised myself I'd never be again after what happened with "her".. Britton Asher ( Just another ex of mine, but she was something special, so you can understand this.. ). I'll keep things updated.
Entry 17: What To Do, What To Do? ( 11 / 21 / 07 )
I have a decision to make. Who should I date? I've got options like I usually do, but I'm split between the choices this time. Jenna still likes me ( Go figure ).. but fuck.. that's really the last thing I feel like doing right now. A cute girl by the name of Kelly Haney likes me too.. hm.. who knows about that. She isn't in high school yet. She's an eigth grader. Close though.. I've also amassed quite a few stalkers recently. Just perfect. Now I have to watch my six just to see if one of the freaks is trailing me. Shit's disturbing..
Entry 18: Made The Choice ( 11 / 24 / 07 )
I thought about things, realized some stuff.. and I decided to get with Kelly. We started dating today.
Entry 19: Decision To Be Made.. ( 11 / 26 / 07 )
I havn't been dating Kelly that long.. but already I get the sense that it might not work out. She lives in the boonies, and I can't see her at school because she isn't in mine. Did I make the right choice? Guess I'll find out.. I'm calling her.
Entry 20: Final Answer ( 11 / 26 / 07 )
It's about an hour after my last entry. Hey, I take care of business fast. That's the way it needs to be done. Anyways, me and Kelly talked about our situation, and we both agree that it's just not going to pan out. We need to wait until next year when she is in my school. That's the only way it would work. So, we agreed on just being good friends until then. It works for me. I feel a lot less on edge now. So.. next girl. Ha ha.
Entry 21: Are You Kidding? ( 11 / 27 / 07 )
I must be on some kind of drugs man.. I just agreed to date Jenna again.. ????. I know. It's a terrible thing. I'm giving her a second chance, even though I'm pretty damn sure she's going to fuck it up again. Ha. Whatever. I guess she said she called it off last time because of Kelly. Apparently Kelly was always bugging her about me ( Asking how I was doing, what was going on between me and Jenna.. all that stuff ). Eventually it got to Jenna and made her feel awkward, but I won't have to worry about that happening this time, because eventually they started fighting over me, and in the end it ruined their friendship. Damn I'm good. Ha ha! So, they don't talk to eachother anymore. Well, that's the story behind that situation.
Entry 22: Driving Gambles And Guinea Pigs ( 12 / 3 / 07 )
School was canceled today. The roads are shit. I know this. I got two feet out the door today and nearly slipped on my ass, but at least I didn't. Sure as Hell is slippery though. Wouldn't want to be in a car today. It's just not a good day for driving. Anyway, I'm pretty much grounded. I've been watching television ever since Friday night. Loads and loads of Comedy Central. Dude.. my little brother's guinea pig died today. Apparently he wasn't giving it enough water and it got dehydrated, then it croaked. Weird how that works huh? My little brother was crying about it. I reminded him that it was his fault, and then he cried harder. Truth sucks sometimes. Call me evil for that if you want, but remember, I'm not the one who neglected a poor little guinea pig.
Entry 23: Looking Forward To Moving Backwards ( 12 / 13 / 07 )
Well, I'm tired of Jenna's crap. Surprised? Yeah, me neither. Something is going on, I can tell, and I told her to straighten her ass up or it's over. Tomorrow I'm making a point to ignore her, and if that doesn't get her to stop the attitude then oh well, I'll find someone without an attitude. It's all good to me.
Entry 24: Simplicity ( 12 / 14 / 07 )
Everything is simple right now and I'm single. Just how I like it to roll.
Entry 25: Work In Progress ( 12 / 20 / 07 )
I'm back with Kelly now. I know it won't last long, but I don't expect it to. It's just something to keep me busy for awhile.
Entry 26: Drama ( 12 / 21 / 07 )
Most people would assume that this entry is not important due to the title, but this drama actually is important. My friend Terry and his girl JoAnna are breaking up.. which is kind of unbelievable. They have been together for a long time. I know for damn sure that the breakup wont last, but it's still a pretty crazy thing that happened.
Entry 27: Some News ( 12 / 22 / 07 )
Well, about the last entry.. I guess the breakup is real, but I also heard a rumor from Matt that they were making out again today.. so maybe they are feeling better. Who knows?
Entry 28: More News ( 12 / 30 / 07 )
It looks rough for them still, but I know Terry and JoAnna.. they'll be back for more.
Entry 29: Plain Insanity ( 1 / 13 / 08 )
OK, so lot's of things have happened lately. Christmas went by, and damn was it awesome. I think the best thing I received was a new HP photo smart digital camera. It records shit and takes awesome pictures so it's all I'll need to make custom videos and all that stuff. It costs one hundred and seventy bucks if you get it through retail, which is what I did. New Years was nice too. I'm glad to see 2008. Well, me and Kelly aren't dating anymore, but like I said before I didn't expect much from that. It was just something for the fun of it and I've already got another girl. Her name is Brittany Mansfield. I started dating her yesterday. She probably won't last long either, but I heard she puts out really easy. Not that I care, since I wouldn't do anything with her anyway. I'm smarter than that, she's most likely got some kinda STD. She's got a little bit of Jurassic Park shit going on in her chest or something too. It like juts out like a third boob or some shit. Kinda weird. I swear if she didn't look kinda hot besides her freakish bump on her chest I'd totally dump her right now. Well enough of that image.. moving on. Lately everybody at school has been taking exams. It really sucks. By the way.. Terry and JoAnna are still in the same predicament, but they will come around like I said. Just wait. You will see.
Entry 30: Another Insane Day In My Shoes ( 1 / 14 / 08 )
Today was pretty rad I guess. Me and Brittany had our first make out in the upstairs part of the gym. Yeah, not even a first kiss, we skipped that part and went straight to the make out. That's how I like it anyway. We just ran up there before the first bell rang and messed around some. Not too bad, I got to finger her through her jeans. She seemed to enjoy that a little too much.. she's kinda awkward. Ha ha. But Hell, that's as far as I'm going to go with her. I'm not getting any diseases from that hoe. Period. Other than that, Terry was supposed to fight Cameron Dunum today, but Cameron didn't ty anything. He didn't even talk any shit. What a p-bag. I guess JoAnna tried to set it up because she was mad at Terry, but I still think that they will end up back together. I know, I know.. call me crazy, but I know it'll happen.
Entry 31: Another Good Day ( 1 / 21 / 08 )
So, today Brittany left me. It was a relief. I couldn't stand her Jurassic Park shit anymore.
Entry 32: The Birthday And The Bitches ( 2 / 3 / 08 )
So I had my birthday party ( On the 27th of last month AKA six days ago ). I'm sixteen now. Awesome. I got some sweet gifts too. Like some money, a lamp that flashes to sound waves ( So when you play music or talk it lights up to the sounds ), along with some other things. Terry, Matt, Dillon, Brian, and Jesse were over here for the party. We went to the arena to ball it up first, then we came back and ordered Hot and Ready pizzas from Little Caesars. That pizza didn't last long. Not even 5 minutes. It was gone so fast. My little bastard brothers took so much that's why, and it wasn't even their pizza to eat. Ha ha. After that we sat down at the big screen television and watch the new release "I Am Legend" with Will Smith in it. That movie was pretty rad. Good acting in it. So there is this girl I think is cool. Her name is Eureka and she is going to my school now ( She used to go to Beaverton Schools ), but I don't think I'll date her. I'm not sure who I'll date actually.. Jenna still likes me ( And I'm still not surprised ). Who knows what will happen there.. Kelly is being a freak lately. She's doing drugs and shit. She's changing a lot. She used to be so different. Misty actually had the guts to ask me out.. and I almost lost the contents of my own. It was disturbing shit dude let me tell you what.. there's a few others. I'll keep shit updated.
Entry 33: WTF ARE YOU THINKING?! ( 2 / 4 / 08 )
Dude.. I'm dating Jenna again. Why the fuck am I doing it? Don't ask, because I have no clue. Maybe I just want some ass. That could be it.. she does have a nice one. Ha, but still.. I'll probably break up with her before that. I can't stand her.
Entry 34: Same Old Same Old.. ( 2 / 5 / 08 )
I'm getting that "I hate Jenna so fucking much" feeling. She is just.. so fucking annoying. There's no other way to put it. Put that aside, I learned a new move in my tricking today. I can now do a front flip twist followed directly by a backflip. It's pretty rad.
Entry 35: NOT EVER AGAIN ( 2 / 12 / 08 )
I'm never dating that woman again. She's fucking insane. Next girl..
Entry 36: Finally A Fight ( 4 / 17 / 08 )
Hey it's been awhile. Something sweet happened recently though. I beat Brenden Jensen's ass. No one in the group or anyone else I know likes him. I was actually congratulated for it multiple times. I only had to hit him once though ( I's not much fun when they quit.. ), and then he whined like a little bitch saying "Just stay away from me alright? Please. GOD." He had it coming. You see, he tried to be a punk and failed, and he got his ass handed to him real quick like for it. What a p-bag. Or a d-bag. I can't decide which. Maybe it's both. Plus today I got a new girl. Her name is Courtney. Courtney Ott. She's from Beaverton. So.. that might be a problem, but fuck it, she's hott.
Entry 37: Matt's Birthday Madness And All-Nighter Movies ( 4 / 27 / 08 )
"I wish I'd have spent more time playing catch with you, rather than spending my life training my mind and body so that I could kill you in a machete battle". That's my favorite quote from the movie "Walk Hard". It's an awesome movie. Funny as Hell, maybe because it was five o' clock in the morning when I watched it. Me and Matt stayed up all damn night watching movie after movie. Good times.Which reminds me.. I probably should have taken those movies back when I had to run home this morning ( My mom wouldn't come get me and Dillon left me there sleeping when he told me that he'd give me a ride home in the morning.. WTF Dillon? LMAO. ) So.. Matt will most likely get late fees now. That sucks, even if it is funny as shit, but the party rocked. The only bad thing that happened was Brian and Travis were pissing us off and not hanging out, but Travis eventually hooked up with us when we found the nig up at the skatepark. But yeah, Brian was being gay that night. Um.. not much else to say about this. Peace.
Entry 38: Parents Are Leaving ( 4 / 29 / 08 )
My parents are leaving together and not coming back for about a week. Hope they have fun.. I know I will.
Entry 39: Courtney ( 5 / 3 / 08 )
I'm not with her anymore.
Entry 40: The Fair ( 6 / 17 / 08 )
The fair was kick ass. I ended up spending forty seven dollars there. I bought three all-day bracelets for the rides, a batch or deep fried Oreos ( Actually very good despite sounding disgusting ), and I gave Nick Damako a buck because he needed it, so I guess he owes me money now. Also I got a new girl, yet again. I'm dating a girl named Kristin. Kristin Keen. I've known her for a while, but I guess I just realized what I think about her. She is pretty rad. She likes my abs. Lol. And her phone service always blows. You have no idea.. her phone dies almost every time I talk with her. It's pathetic. Ha. Well, I've already made out with her. Go figure. It just kinda happened while we were riding the boat ride thing at the fair, random place huh? I know it, but it seemed like a good idea at the time. You know how it is. Her dad's name is Elden and her Mom's is Alice. Her dad seems cool.. I don't know what else to say bout her.
Entry 41: Lackadaisical ( 6 / 21 / 08 )
I haven't written in here that much lately. Maybe I've been lazy. Who cares. If anything cool happens.. you'll know.
Entry 42: Mackinac Island ( 7 / 10 / 08 )
Well, today I went to Mackinac Island with Kristin and some of her friends. Emma Miller and boyfriend Michael were there. It was a really cool trip. The bus ride there and the bus ride back.. well, you can guess what happened. Let's just say there was a blanket involved to hide the "activities". Ha. We didn't have sex, duh. You can't do that on a bus. How could you even if you wanted to? No, we just.. did a few things. ANYWAYS, the trip was cool. I bought some leopard spotted handcuffs that broke, a lot of junk food and a fake lighter that shocks people.. the usual things that you blow your money on. The things you don't even need, but you buy it anyways because it's shiny or it makes cool sounds. Ha. So it was a cool day.
Entry 43: The Start Of A New Beginning ( 12 / 9 / 08 )
It's been a while since I wrote any kind of journal related story. Lots of things have happened to me lately. I've moved on, things came and went, and I've been living day to day just trying to get my handle on what I'm missing. I've was single for a time and had to figure out what I wanted to do, as well as who I wanted to date, and now I'm dating a girl named Kelsie Nichols. We started dating yesterday, the 8th. The day before that we had gone to the arena and ice skated. We somehow managed to find our way up to second floor and into the karate training room. We messed around and fought over my hat for some reason. I'm not sure why or how that started but it was funny anyway. After that, she made her way over to the window overlooking the ice rink below, and I was overwhelmed with the urge to grab onto her, to hold her. So that's exactly what I did. I held her in my arms and kissed her neck. I didn't expect to end up doing that, but it happened anyway. We then went downstairs. We sat and waited for her parents to arrive, on the bench that she was sitting in for her birthday party the year before. It was there that I decided to kiss her. I slowly put my hand to her cheek, and kissed her for the very first time. When the night was over, I finally knew what I wanted. She is adorable to me and I don't think there's anything else I need right now. If everything goes well, then there will most likely be a lot more about her in here.
Entry 44: With Her It's Perfect ( 1 / 8 / 09 )
Do I deserve her? Have I done anything to make me worthy of it? I don't know the answer to that. I'm far from perfect. I'm far from being even close to perfect. I just.. I just hope that she is something I can hold onto, something that, even though I'm not perfect, I won't mess up. She has this quality that grips onto me. It makes me want to do and say things that I have never wanted before. I don't know how to put it into words, but I can feel that she is different. Something is going to happen with us. It's not the same as the old relationships I'd get into. This has a new feeling. It's like I can just know that she is different than the other people I've been with. She is unique to me. And just the fact that I can say that means there will be more ahead for us than just the same old things. We were meant to be, and I'll tell her that someday. I'll tell her when it's been proven, and when she knows it's true as well.
Entry 45: Valentines Day ( 2 / 14 / 09 )
Sometimes I wonder how it feels to be Kelsie. Do I do enough to make her happy? Do I treat her how she wants me to? Am I doing enough to show that I care? Well, today I made it my personal goal to make sure that I do something extraordinary for her. Something that would make her realize that I'm not the average dude who buys the flowers and says I love you so that he might get lucky later on. I want her to know that I love her without expecting anything back, other than her love for me as well. I've been planning parts of today for a long time. I wanted it to be perfect. So here's what I did. I started it off by making her a video. I knew she loves the band Metro Station, so I started paying attention to which songs she talked about most. It turns out the first one she mentioned was a song named after her! It's called Kelsey (which is a really mind-blowing coincidence), and it's now my favorite song. I thought that it was perfect, and the words were as well, so I used that in the video. It turned out great. She nearly cried when she was watching it. I could feel it when I was holding onto her from behind and we were watching it together. That was one of the best parts of my day, because I knew that she was realizing just how much she means to me. I don't know if she ever noticed, but I was smiling behind her when I felt her heart getting faster. I knew that she was feeling something incredible at that moment, which is all I wanted to achieve, and it made me so glad that I had done it. I wasn't done though, before she saw that video, I had taken her to a Chinese restaurant, and bought her a dozen roses with some chocolates. She loved them, I could tell. When we got back to my house we sat down in my room and watched an unexpected but still hilarious movie. It was The Pick Of Destiny. We shared some amazing experiences during that movie, on the parts that we weren't paying attention. We were both excited, and loving it. She touched me for the first time that night. It created a bunch of awesome, burning emotions in me. I had not planned on that happening, because that night was all about her. I just wanted to be with her and let her know I adored her. Anyway, that moment, even though not expected, made the night even more perfect and memorable. After the movie, I let her see the final surprise I had prepared for her. I got out the certificate that proves that I ordered her a star. I named the star Kelsie - I Love You. It took a while to figure out how to do, but it was worth it to see her reaction. I loved everything about my Valentines Day. It was a perfect day, a memorable day, and a day that I could relax. There was no stress and no problems. Nothing except to love her. And it was just one more amazing memory with my one and only.
Entry 46: She Means The World, And Then Some.. ( 2 / 20 / 09 )
So much has happened. It's February the twentieth, 2009. I just arrived home from the most amazing night of my life so far. I spent time with Kelsie, and by spent time, I mean that I shared the most amazing experience I have had in my seventeen years of living. We're no longer so innocent. Still vergins I suppose, since we didn't go all the way, but still not so innocent anymore... that statement changes everything for me and for her too. It's incredible and shocking at the same time. To be able to say it out loud in itself is a relief. I never thought I'd end up there with her, I mean, I had thought about it of course, and I had the occasional dream about it... but I had not expected to be there living it. It took my breath away, almost literally, and made my heart race faster than I could believe. I know for a fact we were both nervous though. Trying new things always seems to snap you into reality and make you realize just how little you know. She was scared, but still wanted it to happen. I was scared too I admit, not of what was about to happen, but just the sight of her anxiety made me nervous in return. I had never saw that look in her eyes before then, so it took me off guard. We were both scared and excited at once, which was fine because we both knew it. I can remember all of it very clearly because I kept telling myself I will never forget any of it. And I won't, the entire time is ironed into my memory. There was so many feelings and complicated thoughts running through my mind and probably hers too. But it all led up to the final decision, we took the chance. Everything about it was incredible. But not just incredible, more than that, in a way that isn't really possible to be described on paper. She felt good, and looked so good, seemed so alive, and sounded so perfect... that I almost ignored the sounds of someone outside. It surprised us and we had to throw our clothes back on as quickly as we could. I didn't even know I could get dressed that fast. It of course, ended up being nothing, no one ever came inside the house. It must have been a random person returning home... but it did not ruin the experience... it only made it more exciting, and I couldn't help but to feel like it was meant to work out that way, because next time there won't be so much nervousness. It would be just me and her enjoying everything about eachother, loving the moment. But that's for next time. As for tonight... the rest of the night was equally as good. We just enjoyed eachother's company. We went to the bowling alley and couldn't keep our hands off eachother. It was like I was addicted and just had to hold onto her no matter what. I still feel like that and and I love it. I know that feeling won't ever go away. Well, I'm going to stop writing, but tonight was something that I had to express. I couldn't just let it stay cooped up inside me, it was tearing at me to get out.
Entry 47: Friday The Thirteenth ( 3 / 13 / 09 )
Well, Kelsie just got a ride home from my house. Tonight was fun, everything about it was great, not one dull moment. There never is a dull moment with her. When me and her are together, it's as if everything else loses it's importance and nothing can bring down my mood. She is just so capturing and exciting, she doesn't even have to try. We watched the movie P.S. - I Love You, but honestly.. we didn't pay much attention to it. We were too busy with eachother. People always say "making out" like it's something casual and just some simple everyday thing. But not with her. With her it's a memory, and all the feelings and emotions to go along with that memory. She knows just exactly how to make me feel good. It's never the same feelings when we have our moments, every time it's something new. But just like it's always new, it's always incredible too. Everything I feel with her is hot and burning and intense. I won't ever let my babygirl go. I'll do whatever I need to do, as long as I'm with her then I'll have all I need.
Entry 48: The Spot ( 5 / 23 / 09 )
Today was perfect. Me and Kelsie went up to our swimming spot and... well, let's just say that there's no one else in the world that can make me feel the way that she does. She felt more amazing than ever today. She always feels good, but today was just extraordinary. There is no way to describe it. We were all over eachother, just enjoying it and having the time of our lives. I wouldn't change a thing.
Entry 49: Six Months Anniversary ( 6 / 8 / 09 )
Today was Kelsie and I's sixth month together, and it was spectacular. I went over there early in the morning and we spent the entire day together. We went swimming at the park and then we went to McDonald's (where I spent 30 dollars on everyone who was with us... haha) and then we went back to her house. When we got there we layed down and I made her feel the best she ever has. She was really excited and it was great to watch her expressions and listen to her breathing. Just all of it. The entire moment was hot and all together amazing. She was definately pleased and I was glad to do that for her. She is so addicting. That wasn't the only thing worth remembering about the day though. The entire thing was perfect for a sixth anniversary and these have been the happiest (and best) months of my life. Kelsie really is special to me. I couldn't ask for anything more! <3
Entry 50: Michael Jackson, Farrah Fawcett ( 6 / 25 / 09 )
Today was just like any other day, except that today Michael Jackson, the famous singer, died. He went into cardiac arrest and was pronounced dead after slipping into a coma. Farrah Fawcett also died, she was a famous actress. Today wasn't a good day for famous people it seems. If I was Will Smith I'd be pissing my pants right about now, because he's both a singer and an actor. But wow... what a surprise. But hell, at least with Michael gone there will be less molestation in the world. Haha.
Entry 51: Kelsie & I ( 6 / 28 / 09 )
Kelsie and I had a great day today. We shared the most incredible feelings ever. We have officially done everything I can think of, that pertains to anything sexual, that is. We have gone all the way, and then some. Haha. So if there was ever any doubt about the "virginity" part, that doubt is officially gone. Today was just a great day. I can't think of anything that went wrong. It was just perfect. I love her so much, and I can't wait to see her again. She is my everything. <3
Entry 52: Another Great Day ( 7 / 18 / 09 )
Today was the greatest. I went to Kelsie's house and we took Aiden (Kelsie's little nephew) to the park across the road to play on the slides. He stole a construction cone from there and brought it back to the house so that he could put his toy car inside of it. He is a hilarious little guy. Then Kelsie & I wached Degrassi for a couple hours. She really likes that show. And she gets really into it. Sometimes she snaps at people when they distract her from the episode. Ha. She makes me smile. Her dad (Scott) lost his shoe. Random I know, but it was so funny to watch him tear the closet inside-out trying to find it. Haha. Anyway, before I left Kelsie & I went into her room and had some fun. After about twenty minutes I couldn't take it anymore and I came. It felt really good. The funny part was when that happened. I got it all over her. On her shirt, hands, everywhere. Haha. We had fun though. It felt good, and we both had a good time. I didn't want to leave. I wish I could be with her 24/7. She makes everything so much more fun and worth remembering.
Entry 53: First High ( 7 / 29 / 09 )
Kelsie and I hung out today. Once again we shared one of our first time experiences together. We tried smoking weed. I got as high as the clouds. That stuff gives me three really strong feelings. The first is being really relaxed, I don't think I've ever been so calm before in my life. The second feeling was extreme hunger, I must have eaten half the kitchen when I arrived back home. The last feeling was horney, I couldn't get myself to settle down and I had the biggest hard on ever. Kelsie and I had a great time that night. She wants to try it again sometime. We might, who knows.
Entry 54: A Fun Day ( 8 / 7 / 09 )
Kelsie came over to my house today. We tried to watch "The Boy In The Striped Pajamas", but we got distracted during the movie (like usual) and started having sex. It lasted nearly an hour and she had an orgasm on top of me. I had never seen her so wet before and it was a huge turn on. Before long though she got tired and had to quit, but it was still one of our greatest moments so far. She was so wet that the leg of her shorts was soaked, and so was I. Ha. It was great. I loved every second of today.
THE PEOPLE I'VE DATED (The Summer before my Freshman year of high school through now)
1 - Britton Asher - She broke up with me.
2 - Cassi Miller - She broke up with me.
3 - Katy Papple - She broke up with me.
4 - Jenna Bullard - She broke up with me.
5 - Megan Gross - She broke up with me.
6 - Kelly Haney - She broke up with me.
7 - Brittany Mansfield - She broke up with me.
8 - Courtney Ott - She broke up with me.
9 - Kristin Keen - She broke up with me.
10 - Brianna Cole - She broke up with me.
11 - Kelsie Nichols - Broke up with her.